Monday, January 31, 2005
If I told you this was killing me,
would you ,
would you Stop?
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 8:51 PM
This girl needs more then the occasional hugs and kisses;
Been stiffy these few days.
Down with an asthma attack, flu, headache, cough, sorethroat.
Don't reckon I'm meeting my girls tmr.
Later rather.
We'll see.
Anws.
While waiting for Dearie to come home, I did up some pics.
(I can't sleep either, my long lost friend visited me; Miss Insomnia.)
Here they are:
Click click;
-) Joyce and Aloy.
-) My Blog's Background.
-) Josh's Craze.
-) Slient Tears.
Yes, photoshop does wonders.
I'm addicted to it.
Hehs.
Dad think's I'm gone.
> (((:
My baby's been working late nights lately.
Do take care ya Dearie ?
-hugstite-
Love love baby.
It's been 5 days since I've seen you and 3 days since we've last talked.
HA !
Okay, i'm a lil exaggerating.
Yes, I was worried cause there wasn't any reply.
I reckon you slept but it didn't seem like you.
Couldn't sleep, tossed and turned.
Got panicky and jumpy.
Was going to call when your message came.
It brought a smile on my face.
Thoughts ran freely before.
You knew what to say.
Perhaps it might be too much for you to take.
My actions, my behaviour.
But it is so,
cause you mean everything to me.
Boy, you know I would give you anything,
just to make you happy.
I'll go to hell back over and over again,
just to prove how much i need you here.
There's nothing i wouldn't do.
I'd cry for you,
I'd lie for you.
I would die for you,
Yes I will.
i love my boyfriend !
-
Josh: I didn't read it. (Okay lah I did.) But how not to ? ! It was fucking spilling all over the screen ! ! > )):
John: i don't care. I am innocent. Final. No arguments. -beams- And if I ever see you fagging, I'm going to pour tar down your fucking tainted throat. Smoking ape. Wad rubbish.
I sincerely apologize for my crudeness.
(((: !
MADNESS.
I feel not myself when he's nt around.
That's it.
You're moving in.
-grins-
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 3:20 AM
Sunday, January 30, 2005
cover my eyes; tell me everything's alright.
whisper sweets nothings to me.
My insecurity's draining me.
Today's family day.
Which means gathering.
I love my grandpa and grandma.
To the end of the world.
They are how nice pls.
The topic was brought back from the kampong times
to the present.
Where my oldest cousin actually labelled a cobra a lizard.
(She was 4 at that tyne)
My neighbour's bunny got dragged up my rooftop and a couple of cats feasted on it.
The stench was there for days.
At last.
I wasn't in the world yet.
My vcd player broke down.
-screams-
It always happens when I bring a horror show home.
Cause when my brother puts in his pokemon cd,
It's as clear as the waters in Hawaii.
Burn player burn !
I want another piercing.
But.
I'm afraid it's just a passing kick.
dfghjkldfghjkl
The things I fuss over.
-sighs-
Looks can be pretentious.
Met this ACJC prefect online.
She was ranting about her rendezvous with her current beau.
How they went at it like rabbits the day before.
How wet she got.
How heavenly it felt.
How fast they went.
YADA YADA.
And loads of details more.
-faints-
Why can't ppl just keep their sexual experiences to themselves.
And not publish it on the world wide web.
And not make known to innocent lil girls like me.
-grins-
If it never really was; don't say.
Once the mirror has been broken,
There will always be a crack.
How obvious it is depends on how you piece the pieces together.
Piece me right.
ilu*
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 2:34 PM
Saturday, January 29, 2005
what happened to that fairytale.
Vette's prata party was nice.
We should prata more often.
At the pwetty coconut's place now.
> ((:
Had this major movie marathon.
Hehs.
-) Legally Blonde 2
-) Underworld
-) Sleepy Hollow
Meeting my lao po laters.
Aloy's picking us up.
Then to min's work place.
It always seems that disappointment gets me.
I'm nt satisfied with anything.
It's been me lately.
Can I turn to you ?
( Josh, "Yes you can.. :) Anytime babe.."-Winks- )
Commentless.
Period.
She's my darling btw.
We talk on the phone for hrs
(Josh, "In the middle of the freaking night. psycho idiot can't sleep so I have to stay up too")
Ahems.
Then we start to play pretend and sing along to funny songs.
That happens to be Party For Two.
Okay.
I've decided that I'm a San Po.
I tend to want to know everything.
So that makes you,
Terence Teo a SAN GONG.
-Josh rolls eyes-
Hehs.
Toodles.
Aloy's comming.
La la la.
((:
(Josh, "I'm sleepy.")
Did I mention Josh has really nice bits ? !
Bacon bits to be exact.
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 9:33 PM
Friday, January 28, 2005
love me more pls;
i need you now.
-sighs-
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 10:59 PM
Aights.
I have decided to spice up my blog.
-grins-
Finally got my hands onto photoshop.
So, poof.Another masterpiece.
-beams-
Dearie's gotten another present from his course today.
> )):
Yet, another deep cut.
pfft.
It's seems like godzillions years since I last met him.
MADNESS.
I want my other half.
-pouts-
If Dearie was here now,
I'd push him onto the bed and La la la.
No, I'm not drunk.
I wonder how guys would react when other guys hits on their chicks.
-thinks-
Dearie, what would you do ?
HA !
Going to Vette's place tmr.
Char's blackmailing me.
-smacks you-
Do me a fav ppl.
Pls tag.
((:
This invitation is extend to MR. TERENCE TEO.
And you still owe me a testi.
HAHAHA !
Thank you.
-
Josh: I'm comming on the 4th and I don't care.
Min: Burn bitch, burn. Josh has NO right to spank my arse and your the chick. > [:
Geri: Hey babe ! ((: You can have the layout if you want ! Just tag me aiights ? -hugs-
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 6:48 PM
Thursday, January 27, 2005
Just kiss me;
and don't say a thing.
Mum & Dad's having this pedomorphic dispute.
Bro's tantalized with Fann.
I'm anchored to the com.
How pleasant.
Dinner these days have become a drag.
No one's speaking.
It's as though we're some display family.
In some barbie doll world.
It's distressing.
Vette's party on sat.
Contemplating issues on going or not.
Includes a major debate with folks.
D A N G S.
Char's blackmailing me.
- sobs -
You're a much more bitchy-er bitch then the bitch I already am; bitch.
MADNESS.
Dad's unrelenting jabbering is highly tormenting.
My sanity is placed at high-stakes.
I'm losing it
I'm thoroughly piqued at nincompoops who attempt to tell me how to live my life.
Fornicate off pls. (?) - It means Fuck too.
Definition:
Fornicate;
v : have sex without being married
I shall allow myself to revel in the wonders of living.
(Yeah, hell right lyn.)
I demand to have my Dearie here at once.
But God forbid, I'm grounded.
To hell with the damnable goose who concocted that word.
I found
t h i s.
LMAO ! ! ! > ((:
-
John: That's bad. Darn it.
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 6:43 PM
Wednesday, January 26, 2005
Just the two of us;
It's dangerous.
Hmm.
To cut or not cut my nails.
-looks at them-
Firstly, I don't want to cause I took months to grow them.
And file them into shape.
And clean them.
And I want a manicure done.
Otherwise, they get in the way when I dash off the keys.
Making my "okays" to "okayd"
(Yes, they slip off the tabs.)
Prevent me from putting on my studs.
Add much decoration to my already poka dotted skin.
Ultimately, also causing me to go bonkers when I sms.
I'm amazed at myself.
Fancy making cutting nails a controversy to blog.
PFFT.
Digress.
I've been looking at past entries and I feel scandalized at the way I type.
It's enough to sent me into head banging convulsions.
Period.
Goes to show that IRC follows you everywhere.
I reckon I should go back to the vocab thingy.
Cause I'm still fumbling with the alien like words min throws at me.
Till now, it still happens.
I'm rather antagonized with her indirectly.
Therefore,
Thou shall be more fervent and fall in love with my thesaurus
and complete that half-written fairy tale of ours.
This is so as I being the egomaniacal, idiosyncratic me,
Refuses to admit that my base usage of thee enigmatic, profound english language
is starting to granulate and disintegrate at a ridiculous rate.
Anws,
Char and I were playing pretend on the fone.
((:
The bimbotic ah-lianish way.
She's a natural i swear.
- educes the bball tymes -
Those babes crashed my crib.
Had a spanking good tyme !
Char did, in broad daylight spanked my arse.
I feel bloody violated. > )):
The playlist :
-) Viva La Bam - Skatetopia season, Mardi Gras
-) You Got Served - The Blond guy's hawt ! -poke char-
-) Walking Tall - Hail The Rock.
Now, a revelation.
Min's hair is not fluffy.
BUT
a combination of short bung-kish fashion with a turf of flocculent
hair look alike pitted in the center.
She stands out like a new borne chick.
Simply a mesmeric sight.
-rolls onto floor in laughter-
Then again, I can never be as jaded as her.
Guys are totally biased against women.
Those utterly nonsensical reasons to act as circumstantiated testament
to authorize their imprudent, fatuous, preposterous behaviour should be branded as
a taboo.
One more thing.
Is it a frivolity to sign in to messenger,
Then not have a talkfest with another fellow mate ?
Apparently, it appears that way.
Ppl just gladly leave their away signs to stand in for them.
What's the practicality in that ? !
dfghjkldfghjkl
-
John: Hollers. The wonders John. The wonders. -grins-
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 9:51 PM
baby; i don't want this dream to end.
don't stop; don't let me fall.
-
I've been a really spoilt ass lately.
*&^%$@#!
Pls ignore my previous post.
It's the results of my self pity state.
Hence the rantings.
Anws.
Met Dearie last night.
Headed off to Sembawang Park.
Yes, it's dark and ulu.
But wad the heck.
(Was just telling my lil wife how nice it is.)
HA !
Tsk tsk.
-winks-
I think I made him a lil upset/disappointed.
I'll make up for it Dearie !
Promise.
((:
-hugs-
I LOVE MY CUPCAKE.
And he's an affectionate lover so to say.
HAHAHA.
Logged into to friendster,
Looked at the board, left.
It's getting quite a bore lately.
Maybe I should go d/w Paris Hilton's sex romp.
HAH.
Okay, I'm joking.
Btw,
Dearie !
You owe me one.
A testi I mean.
Hehs.
i heart you many many many <3 (: !!
-
Josh: Yes, I'm looking ferward to the 4th too. OHMYGOSH. I miss you ppl hell loads,
Min: Hey bitch. -hugs- ((:
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 9:53 AM
Tuesday, January 25, 2005
i'm confused.
it rips me apart.
it gives me joy.
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 11:37 PM
Desperate Housewives
is a must watch.
Man, the bored wife is way too hot I'd turn lesbian for her STRAIGHT AWAY.
Yes, just for her I WILL TURN LESBIAN.
-drools-
Okay, I'm trying not to wander off anywhere when I'm blogging.
Bad bad habit.
Hmfps.
Got a shock from Dearie yest night when Char and I were busying
ourselves with all the action from that show.
1 message recieved from Dearie.
It read:
See you at the park at 10.30.
No buts.
-blinks-
Yes, I was practically yelling into the phone.
(Sorry Char.)
And yes, I had to turn him down.
> )):
And he wants me to make up for some stuff.
Ah, shall nt go into details.
Hehs.
Got his live shots today.
Hope he does well.
Anws, Dearie;
I reckon Kyer disapproves of the topic last night.
That's why she won't stop barking.
-grins-
Did I mention I'll turn lesbian for that HOT HOT babe ? !
(((:
Yeaps, John's team won the 1st two matches.
Believe me, it IS a good start.
HAHA.
Maybe I'll drop by the next few.
Dragg the stroomster along.
Yeah, hell my bitching partner.
Fave phrase for both of us:
Hey BITCH !
Yeah, crude I know.
tsk tsk.
We ARE convent girls you know.
LOL.
La la la.
Might be meeting the babes for bballing tmr.
HOOTS.
I miss them.
Okay, it's my bad.
Vette's prata party this sat.
GAWD.
*beams*
Yeaps, my babies are comming.
Gotta go call call and confirm.
Hmms.
It's at 11am.
In the morning.
And I err, kinda forgot her add.
Darn it.
Shall ask the wise fish thens.
Going visiting the gan- mas on the 3rd day of CNY.
How nice.
HAHA.
Apparently, Miss Maefrize Khoo become one too.
SUEDE.
> (((:
She's one hell of a teacher.
-) Her husband did my tattoo.
-) Her husband has HIS OWN tattoo parlour.
-) She's a damm good bball player.
-) She has tattoos.
-) She has two cute kitties - bubbles and xiao hei.
-) She's my kinda lady.
Haven't really planned out gan-ma's outing on the 4th yet.
Most prob it'll be at swen's then a long long bitching session.
Place : j8
Maybe I'll wear my school uni just to spite gan ma.
HAHA.
Afterall, SHE is the D.M.
-faints-
Loads of good teachers are gone.
-) Arman.
-) Tin-Tin.
Aye.
I can't remember.
Seriously, I so miss the school days.
)):
All the fooling ard.
The toliet stuns.
And the crazy classroom talks.
I feel ancient.
-sobs-
i thank you for making my day.
i thank you for making me smile.
i thank you for being there for me.
i thank you for making me laugh.
i thank you for bringing so much joy.
i thank you for chasing away the pain.
i thank you for everything.
i thank you for comming into my life.
i thank you for loving me.
i thank the Lord i found you.
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 2:37 PM
Monday, January 24, 2005
Aiights.
Had this lil discrepancy.
Everything's fine now.
> (((:
Dearie came home late yest.
Friend got into some trouble.
Drink/drive stuff.
Tsk tsk.
So, he had to bail him out.
And my silly baby turned down
a lady police officer.
Oh Lord, what happened to all the fetish for suits
and cuffs and all ?
AHAHA.
Anws.
Dearie and I conversed last night.
Even though he's tired and stuff.
(Yes baby, you were tired) > ((:
-hugs-
He still managed to read what I blogged.
So, uh-huh.
It was so so so embarrassing pls.
And the worst part was that he said sorry.
And told me how heart breaking it was to read it.
> ))):
I would have gladly swallowed my tongue.
The fever got him too.
And he's still going to work.
-sighs-
I didn't call him on tyme this morning.
PFFT.
Someone smack me.
I have this habit of blogging,
then wandering off to surf the net/download stuff/surf more net.
Yes, I'm weird I know.
Then when I get back to blogger.
In like 9898736484 years, I forget what to blog.
Then I'll start cursing.
Brillaint mind I have.
I wonder what's like to be like Dearie and go
to work everyday.
Hmmm.
And what's it like working in prison.
-thinks-
-
So hold me when I'm here
Right me when I'm wrong
Hold me when I'm scared
And love me when I'm gone
Everything I am
And everything in me
Wants to be the one
You wanted me to be
I'll never let you down
Even if I could
I'd give up everythingIf only for your good
So hold me when I'm here
Right me when I'm wrong
You can hold me when I'm scared
You won't always be there
So love me when I'm gone
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 2:56 PM
Sunday, January 23, 2005
I'm sinking into self-denial and insecurity.
It's so not good.
And I feel like crying.
I'm so screwed up.
don't say you love me; when you don't.
don't say you need me ; when you have another.
don't talk about feelings ; if they ain't really there.
don't ever hold my hand ; when you plan to let it go.
don't try to heal my wounded heart ; when you know you're gonna hurt it.
don't say i'm yours ; when all you have is her.
never say i'm the one ; when you dream of more than me.
I want a guy that treats me well
I'm not doubting you.
It's myself i'm doubting.
Thoughts are just running through my head.
It's nothing that you said or did;
It's not you baby.
It's me.
I just can't seem to find myself.
I'm so so so defensive.
I can't explain.
All those past fears have come back to haunt me.
I don't want to hear them.
It's so hard to shut them out.
I'm afraid of myself.
I'm afraid to let you down.
I'm afraid to wake up one day
finding you g o n e .
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 6:52 PM
Gd afternoon my sweets.
I'm attempting to type/eat/watch tv/talk on the phone all at once.
Women are known to multi-task.
Hehs.
Dearie's sleeping now.
Supposed to be doing some paperwork.
HAHA.
My poor baby got the shoulders today.
( It's my fault fer making him stay so late.)
And to add it up, he's sick.
> ))):
Min gave me the scare of my life when she called me just now.
Yelling as if I just killed someone.
-faints-
Might be going back to school to collect the year book.
Safy, min and me.
In all our tinted hair glory and min's chicky hairstyle.
How nice.
Got this mail:
when a guy REALLY falls in love~ remember ya.. only REALLY~~ NOT pura2 1
Message: When a guy reali falls in love and becomes
faithful to his beloved, his change in his
character will really shock everyone around him..
His egoist heart will uncompromisingly softens
when he willingly gives his heart to the lady he
falls in love with..Furthermore, he'll be willing to sacrifice everything
and do anything for his loved one.. No matter
how egoist he may be, tears will fall from his cheeks
wen his heart's broken..It's not easy to see guys who would truly cry
for their loved ones...
~21 signs to recognise the strong love a guy
holds for his beloved..
1. He willingly do anything n everything for his
beloved.. with sincerity not coercion
2. He constantly wants to humour his beloved
and tends to be more talkative
3. He tends to advise his beloved more as he
truly loves her and wants her to be a better
person
4. He tries to restrict her freedom due to his
overwhelming jealousy
5. He constantly fears losing his beloved
6. He always monitors his beloved's movements as
he feels insecure
7. He hates the idea of other guys being close
to his beloved
8. He becomes jealous and sensitive when his
beloved pays less attention to him
9. He becomes the most hardworking person n
help his beloved to do anything n everything
10. He becomes restless wen his beloved's
away for too long
11. He cares for his beloved more than he
does himself
12. He constantly asks if his beloved loves him
as he feels his love is greater than his beloved's
13. He would not be bothered wif other gals
who dun hold any importance to him
14. He will try to spend a lot of time wif his
beloved even though he noes he'll end up
waitin for his beloved
15. He praises his beloved in front of others
16. If his beloved leaves him, he cant trust any
other gal n wishes for his beloved to come back to him
17. When there is a third party, he loses his
mind and is willing to do anything to fight fer his
beloved
18. He makes sure he ensures her safety at all
times
19. He is like a small kid who fights for constant
attention from his beloved
20. He treats his beloved as his most trusted
one and willing to sacrifice all of his wealth and
even his life for her..
21. He keeps asking his belove wheather she
love him not?
~It's not easy to find guys who would shed their
tears just for gals.. So please treasure them...~
Dearie, if you're going to forget our anni.
I will not:
-) Speak to you.
-) Hold your hand.
-) Reply your messages.
-) Answer your calls.
-) Kiss you.
-) Go out with you.
HAHA.
Okay lah, I'm mean.
Sorry.
It was to make you cry so I could prove that mail right.
HA !
Aights.
John's having this self denial thing
going on.
WAKE UP ! !
You have a gf to take care of.
):
He wasn't like that last tyme.
Guess things change too fast.
Good luck fer the match anws.
Going to edit some stuffs on my blog.
Till Dearie wakes up.
I don't think he will.
I've seen him 2 days in a row.
Yet i'm still missing him APLENTY.
dfghjkldfghjkldfghjkl.
-
John: You are a pretty boy ! (((:
Josh: Aiights ! Looking ferward. *smiles*
You were there for summer dreaming
and you gave me what I need
and I hope you'll find your freedom
for eternity, for eternity
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 3:08 PM
tell me what i see isn't true.
tell me what i hear isn't true.
tell me you're not real.
tell me love isn't real.
i'm afraid it's all a dream.
i'm afraid to lose you.
pleasedon'tbreakmyhearrt
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 2:05 AM
okay.
i typed out a chunk and it became invisible.
):
i shall make this short.
my dearie's met my mum/bro/great-aunt/grandma.
((:
at the club now.
dearie's beside me.
say somehing ! !
-poke poke-
>>eating some claypot rice cooked by sweetie's mum...
it is a HUGE pot!~ i am still chewing on the chicken as i type
yeapps.
i love my cuppycake !!!
-mwuah-
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 1:17 AM
Saturday, January 22, 2005
Hellos.
(:
I've got my com back.
The computer man came this morn.
Then.
TA-DA ! !
-grins-
Met up with Dearie yest.
Love love !
(:
Went to compass fer din din then
ter the beach.
It's so nice.
And of course, it is the best place to be.
Saw gan-ma at compass too !
I miss her !
she: On the 28th go gai gai ar ?
me: OKAY ! -hugs her-
Yes, the beach is a nice place to be.
It is ! !
Dearie says I like Ah-Beng cars.
PFFFT.
):
Sent me home round one.
I love his car.
HAHA.
Okay.
I LOVE HIM TOO.
-mwuah-
I think he got me addicted to speed.
BAD.
Hehs.
Plus, he's still nt approving of bikes.
Why dearie ?
-tugs on shirt-
Anws,
Are you sure I mentioned that the beach is a nice place ?
(((:
I shall make Dearie egg-sandwiches.
Oh, kiss me beneath the milky twilight
Lead me out on the moonlit floor
Lift your open hand
Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance
Silver moon's sparkling
So kiss me.
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 5:22 PM
Thursday, January 20, 2005
Been awhile since I've used this color.
Hahs.
Silly me I know.
(:
Quite a no of things happened.
Both good and bad.
Seeing John in his plight,
Kinda reminded me on how I was like last tyme.
Think I really have beautiful parents.
I thank God for them.
My rantings on them.
It's a way to make myself stay sane.
Overall.
They make the bestest folks.
Ever.
Had this really open sms thingy going on with Mr.Bf last night/this morn.
He knows just what to say.
Knows just how to push the pain away.
> (((:
What more can I ask?
Think I'll be meeting him on fri; unless serious shit happens.
Accompany him to go get his salad if he wants.
HAHA.
Then to suntec.
I love love that place.
Just standing by the fountain gives me a sense of tranquility.
And the bonus lightings and all.
-sighs-
(:
All those complications in my life goes away.
Dozed off after smsing dearie again.
HAHA.
And no, no.
Why would I never want to talk to you again ? !
When I think back on our conversations,
I realized we talk about almost everything.
To lit teachers with the refine brit accent
To the silly outrageous things we used to do in school.
How funny pls.
Do pardon my crude language but I have to make a shout out,
Before my brain implodes inside of me.
i miss you so fucking much.
Aiights.
End of post.
You're my shooting star.
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 2:49 PM
Wednesday, January 19, 2005
I'm a happy lady.
*SMILES*
Slept at like 6.15 in the morning.
HA !
Was talking to Mr.Bf.
Clocked 6hrs on the phone.
No, I don't believe it either.
(:
Woke up when Xiao An kor called.
Was still in a dazed so i didn't know what he was muttering.
Then he was like; "You still sleeping ar ? Okay lah. I put down. Don't disturb you, go back to sleep."
Was on the phone with Josh.
Some screwed shit.
-sighs-
Sometimes, it's just so hard to forget.
It makes you wish yourself dead.
Then you'd feel no more pain.
Cause you can't cry anymore.
Anws.
She made me talk to Woody.
-dies-
Yes, rabbit language.
And.
She wants to cut my nails ! ! !
NOOOOOOOO ! !
-runs away-
Mr.Bf and I share almost 90% of the same likings.
HAHA.
Funny funny.
My handphone bill is so going to bust.
-shudders-
Don't wanna think bout it.
Eek.
Mum's doing this on purpose.
She's gonna get MY DREAM phone before I do.
Then flaunt it in front of me.
-SCREAM-
Why why why why why.
I shall go sink and allow myself to dwell in self-denial/ depression.
How saddening pls.
))):
Mr Bf's not paying attention to lectures when he's supposed to.
-slaps forehead-
Instead, he's messaging me.
He's so dead if he's caught.
Hehs.
Tsk tsk.
(((:
Changed my blog template a lil.
-beams-
I love Snuff.
He's so cute.
HAHA.
Sent char a few pics of him.
AHHH.
Cute lil cartoon character.
Min's still stuck in that god damm place of hers.
And she's not going to spent quality time with us.
-sobs-
You set my world on fire,
Babe I've got a crush on you.
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 3:48 PM
Tuesday, January 18, 2005
Mr Bf:
I'm torn.
I don't want to disappoint you.
It seems that it's all I'm capable of.
Sorry.
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 1:47 PM
Today didn't start off well.
Basically cause of that dumb dream I had.
How sickening.
> ))):
Shan't say more.
It isn't that wondeful.
Anws.
I'm having this horribly horrid heavy flow.
-sulks-
Was checking the webs for phone plans.
I'm actually thinking of settling for the nokia 6170 instead.
Mr. Bf reckons I shld nt settle for second best.
-dies-
I'm changing to starhub;
Mainly cause of the incoming calls.
THAT I SO NEED.
Mr. Bf has a fetish for long long legs.
):
Like this:
Okay.
Now he can feast on kate moss's legs for all he wants.
Was on the phone till 12+ with him.
Was telling me stuff I needn't have to know.
-) seeing your body organs function "live"
-) ppl jumping.
-) having tooth stuck onto your knuckles.
I miss the school days.
Veh badly.
Rights.
Mr.Bf has a way of making me feel gulity
simply because I can't meet him.
> ))):
And I can't.
One thing for sure.
He never gives up.
-laughs-
I feel so peculiar, I don't know what to say.
But don't let me fool you
I'm not one bit afraid, no way.
One thing's for sure
What I would give to simply open my door
And see your smiling face.
Hello, hello,
Won't you come right in?
I'd give anything just to see you again.
Hello, hello
Won't you come right in,
Step into my world
where you know you're everything
Everything I need
I'm suddenly hopeful
Whenever you're in sight,that's right.
I talk about you all day;
Whisper your name at night, that's right.
Whatever you need,
What I would give if you should ask it of me,
To make you feel complete.
Hello, hello,
Won't you come right in?
I'd give anything just to see you again.
Hello Hello won't you come right in.
Step into my world where you know you're everything.
I could go on and on and on
Do It again, again, again
Whisper your name, your name, your name
Would you do the same for me
I feel so peculiar I don't know what to say...
Hello Hello won't you come right in
I'd give anything just to see you again.
Hello hello won't you come right in
Step into my world where you know you're everything.
Everything
Everything
I feel so peculiar
You know I feel so peculiar
You know I feel so strange.
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 1:40 PM
Monday, January 17, 2005
There's this veh pissy person
who keep harrassing my lil cousin.
RIGHT.
And that ass caused misunderstanding.
Pls.
FUCK off.
Baby ! !
I'm missing you. > ))):
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 5:10 PM
Rippers should burn in hell.
How irritating pls.
When some half-baked, half-witted, idiotic, ill-advised,
imbecilic, uncivil, uncouth, uncultivated, uncultured, unrefined
invertebrate pisses the shit outta me.
I WILL NOT ALLOW MYSELF TO GIVE
TWO FUCKS WORTH FOR YOU.
PPFFT.
Anws.
Today's session went fine.
(:
My psy was like awesome.
She told my dad: "If you don't give her a chance,
how is she going to prove to you that you can trust her ?"
This applies to me going out at night.And my dad making
such a big fuss outta it.Bout boys, smoking, clubbing and the list
goes on.
Bout how I get really irritated when he judges me.
And not trusting me like he should.
HELLO.
I'm 17 this yr mind you.
He's blabbering on like i'm some mentally retard
who has been divorced/pregnant/jailed/ 987698765 times.
He should take a look at my school records.
For TEN yrs.
Sparkling C L E A N.
Riights.
That would add up that I'll fight tooth
and nail for my rights.
HMPFS.
Mr. Bf and I were like reading out horoscopes
yest night.
Almost 3/4 of the conversation.
Interesting.
Our chinese horoscopes says the worst of us.
Our Star signs says the opposite.
-sighs-
When East meets West.
He's born a natural lawyer.
-raises eyebrows-
We'll see bout that !
HA !
He's working office hrs today.
)):
And the thing that I should complain is
that why can't prison officers use their handphones ? !
This is outrageous.
V day will be a first this yr.
Let me see.
For the past few years, I've dedicated them to girls.
Yes, my clique.
We'd go out and laugh ourselves silly.
Oh, the good times.
This yr,
Maybe i'll get my wish.
Starry nights.
*smiles*
I shall keep myself busy by uploading songs onto my blog.
HAHA.
* Periods should be banned.
-) Cramps gives me hell.
-) I hate being bloody > ))):
龙
I am unquenchable fire,
The center of all energy,
The stout heroic heart.
I am truth and light,
I hold power and glory in my sway.
My presence
Disperses dark clouds.
I have been chosen
To tame the Fate.
I AM THE DRAGON.
We're getting some where.
Pls, don't let me go.
ilu*
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 1:47 PM
Sunday, January 16, 2005
When I'm down and all alone
When nothing seems to matter
When I lose my hope
When I'm sad and confused
When it all gets turned around and 'round
I can't seem to reach for solid ground
When everything I've believed in seems untrue
All I have to do
/*Is think of you
I think of you and it's gone
Like you chase away the storm
Making it all okay
I think of you
I think of you and I'm strong
And I know I can go on
It's like you set me free
When life gets the best of me
I just think of you
Now I know what love means
And whatever life may hold for me
Through the fire
Through the rain I believe
Cause there's nothing I can't bear
Knowing that you will be there
If I fall I won't break
Through it all I'll make it through
Cause all I have to do
/*
And when I think I'm all alone
I can't see the way to go
Lost in the rain of my own tears
To wash away the pain and fear
/*
For the good times and the bad times
I just think of you
Cause you know you get the best of me
I just think of you.
Once in awhile,
Right in the middle of an ordinary life,
Love gives us a fairy tale.
It all happened when I found you.
> (((:
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 1:42 PM
Mr. Bf's sick.
It's the cursed flu.
))):
Pls get well.
Baby
Baby
ilu*
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 1:08 AM
Saturday, January 15, 2005
Lyn's a very tired but happy girl.
It's been quite awhile since I last said that.
(((:
Din't go for Den's party.
-) No time.
-) My braces hurts like fuck.
-) Din have the mood to go.
Talked with Mr.Bf last night.
YAAY ! ! !
* B E A M S *
Daddy thinks we're going out.
LOL.
I'm nt saying anything.
Tsk tsk.
Hush.
Note to self:
-) I don't click with numbers.
-) Daddee can go hire his own accountant once I start studying.
-) I'm nt taking up business.
PFFT.
I'm going dfghjkldfghjkl over all the many many statistic numbers on the report.
-screams-
Oh.
Mr. Bf reads this blog.
How pai-sei pls.
HAHA ! !
Anws.
Was just telling mummy how chinese ppl favours males.
I told her:
you yi ge gu gu jiao zhen hao ming.
Obviously.
She just laughed her head off.
C'mon face it.
It's so true.
When you are born with the bird,
you are like the most privileged/luckiest person alive.
Tell me the difference between having a pair of boobs
and a carrot with two ding ding dongs dangling beside it.
Okay.
I talk too much.
Gonna be dragged off the mah uncle's place for dinner.
Some pre- family reunion thing.
No no !
I don't wanna go.
-sulks-
Uploaded songs onto mah blog.
It's at the "grooves" area.
i am so very happy.
Thank you.
((:
I'm missing my Mr. Bf like siao. < ))): MADNESS.
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 4:01 PM
Friday, January 14, 2005
I hope everything's going alright for you.
I don't know what to say.
I'll be praying for her.
imissyou*
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 8:26 PM
I'm gonna do this before my mom drags me off to some super crowded
place to do her shopping.
No, it is not pleasant.
)):
Anws.
I might get into a r/s.
(:
I hope it'll last and nt end up like the prev.
):
Lets call him Mr Boyfriend.
( I was thinking Mr.Girlfriend but it sounds too lesbian-nic.)
So, Mr Bf and I chatted from 9+pm till 4am.
It was a long long talk.
But a really good one.
The Hits:
-) He likes the beach
-) He has a black car.
-) He'll give in to me right ? ?
-) He's str8 ferword.
-) He's a prison officer.
-) He avoids crowded places.
-) He's sensible for his age I guess. ;))
*SMILES*
Oh well.
I'd get myself into erm, "trouble"
So, I can't confirm my status as Mrs.Bf anot.
HA !
You see,
I can't actually spent quality time with him just as yet.
Many thanks to my mum and dad.
)):
So I reckon to hold off till march.
Which is L O N G.
Let's hope.
That Mr.Bf's patient.
-crosses fingers-
To the one that has brought me pain.
Maybe it's really time to let things go.
Admist all, I thank you.
To Mr.Bf:
I have feelings for you.
They can be grown much further.
I'm not afraid of letting you know of the feelings I have.
I think it's only right.
I don't need you to tell me that you love me 24/7.
I just need you to be there to catch me if I fall.
You know my flaws.
And I hope you'll accept me for who I am
I have my bad days.
If I do thrown my temper ard, pls forgive.
I can do the silliest things and not notice it.
So you have to guide me through.
I'll give you what I can.
Pls don't push me if I don't want to.
I will walk off without looking back.
I need you to speak out if there's anything wrong with this r/s.
I need you to be understanding and patient.
I need you to know that I've been damaged
and I need time to put my total trust in you.
It's very hard to get my trust back once you've breached it.
I think it goes the same for you too.
I don't like pressure to be placed onto me when I'm in a r/s.
I can compromise.
I might seem strong on the outside.
But I do wear fake facades to cover up my feelings.
And I'm still fragile inside.
I don't need you to pay for my stuffs,
I just need you to treat me right.
I can be super crude at times.
Only when I'm pmsing or someone pissed me off big time.
No, I don't cry in public.
I hope I won't cry in this r/s.
Neither do I wanna fight.
I don't expect gifts for occasions.
It's fine with me if you don't get them.
I maybe paranoid at sometimes.
You have to reassure me.
I'm still looking at r/s in a more negative light.
I need you to change my mind.
I can't be the perfect gf.
But I'll try to make up for my flaws.
This I can promise.
I will cherish you.
I hope you will do the same to me too.
Prove to me your the one I'm looking for.
Tell me that I've finally found you.
Show me the wonders of having you.
Give me your love that I need.
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 11:32 AM
Thursday, January 13, 2005
Recap:
I called up a company few weeks ago.
This manager of some sort picked up the fone.
me: Hi, I'm calling bout the job advert.
Manager: Oh, sorry our company hires guys only.
me: Right. -hangs up-
Btw.
It was a lady that picked up my call.
Weird.
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 5:42 PM
Japanese stuff toy like DOMO - KUNYO
Should be sold world wide.
I demand for it.
He is so cute pls.
Anws.
I'm dead beat.
Slept at like 6++ and woke up at 12.
HAHA.
Told you my life's getting more screwed up.
Gotta go see my family psy soon.
Don't exactly know when.
Aye, it's such a waste of time.
Gosh.
Pass me a mirror and I'll gladly council myself deeper into the depths of psycho-ness.
-grins-
Aiights den.
I shall titter of to go pay mu-online a visit.
It's the romanian server btw.
So the lang are like blibberish to me.
Need = Deed
Ah, the joys of living.
You get to sent your soul into total chaos.
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 3:58 PM
Wednesday, January 12, 2005
There's a major bitch with a critical down-syndrome condition in the house.
Yes, that's me.
I think I have a very complex personality disorder.
Went online today and was fascinated by this guy online.
He's nice to say the least.
And if you're thinking chemical romance.
Scrape that.
((:
He's just nice nice to talk to.
Oh, He's Danny btw.
He shares the likes with me.
-) the beach.
-) chocolate.
-) being single.
-nods head-
And we made a bet.
If he loses, (heh heh heh)
He'll :
-) Buy me a whole life time of candy
-) Bring me to see the stars at night
-) Bring me travelling. (Maybe.)
I think too much for my age.
At my age, girls should be going ga-ga over 5566,
Making eye contact at every guy they see in town.
Going to town everyday.
Thinking of their next crush.
Shopping for the adreline rush.
And I am thinking of what my house will be like.
If I can afford to pay the bills.
If I will have kids.
If I do, will I go mad.
How much my job will have to pay to support my lifestyle.
Really.
I should take up meditation and attempt to find my inner-self.
Which will prolly be more of a havoc.
)):
Tmr brings a new day.
That's what they always say.
I'm finally at lv 100.
(((:
My eyes are going to pop.
But just get the kick from slaying monsters.
I have a fetish for guys who speak properly.
Have a good sense of humor.
Charming, basically.
Uh, I just stated the obvious.
Good night then
This cruel, tragic world.
This darkness embeds.
Lies I told are many,
But when I said ilu*,
It was straight from mah heart.
24/7
I have to admit.
I have been thinking of you.
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 9:25 PM
Tuesday, January 11, 2005
Knock knock.
I'm feeling so depressed.
UGHS.
Yes, i know.
Maybe it's just one of those pmsing days.
Where it would come and go.
At least i hope it would.
Kazaa is getting me on my nerves.
Veh veh badly.
I really wished i could go back to the sec three years.
It's thee golden year of my life.
Arman's nagging.
Fonseka's nagging.
Mr Tan's nagging.
YADA YADA.
I'm such an angel in school.
NO RECORDS.
And no body believes.
-sulks-
Maybe i'll follow mummy to dance tmr.
Depends.
If or If not.
Whether i do/do not wake up.
((:
I said I could get over you.
But My thoughts betray.
I had cheese.
So, i'm not cursing.
Yes, it's good.
And Mcdondals have curly fries now.
YAYY ! !
I shall wait till my bro takes the initiative to buy it.
Min's getting her arse off the job soon.
More hanging out.
*GRINS*
It's so funny when i think of the old times.
So funny how i trusted you so much.
More then i ever did to anyone.
Now, it doesn't make sense bout how you broke mah heart.
Yes, ripped it apart at the seams.
You may have forgotten me.
You should alrd have by now.
And, i would just reside.
And rest upon those dusted times.
It seems that the more i try to forget.
The harder it is to reason why.
The pain.
The tears.
They come and they go.
When i think of you.
I'm so afraid.
That I may never love again.
I could not love anyone whose not you.
There's just this thing you have.
It's ur special-ness.
Or some sort.
It's the way you loved me.
I knew you really cared.
I know you did.
The way you held my hand.
The way you kissed me.
The way you use to just say i love you.
I miss those times.
And everything just disappeared.
Even you.
I can't find what I want when I look into another's eyes.
Nothing i find.
Deep down, those memories will stay I guess.
Till the day I manage to make it go away.
It's driving me insane baby.
You never now how much it hurts.
All you do is walk away my love.
Since it was over.
You have never left my mind.
Causing me enternal torment.
Would you stop it ?
Come back will you ?
The fallen angel dies inside.
You're killing me softly.
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 10:42 PM
I'm done.
-GRINS-
Dearie's talking to me via her office phone.
(:
And she always leaves me hanging.
):
My messed up life is getting more messed up.
How nice pls.
Came home late late last night/early morn.
I shld quit the late night habits.
It's down for a new year resolution.
PFFT.
Note:
Brazilian waxing hurts like FUCK.
Thank you.
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 4:26 PM
i should not be to nosy and try to change my blog template.
that is not possible.
)):
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 3:39 PM
Monday, January 10, 2005
OK OK ! !
I'm off to meet my dearie !
-muwwwwahs-
And i miss you all too mah babies.
(((:
Like i said.
My Kyeriee baby ALWAYS make my day.
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 8:38 PM
Finally.
I managed to bring mahself up to lv 95.
It's fucking hard work.
)):
I LOVE KATE MOSS.
She's THE one.
Oh pls.
Marry me.
Turned down char's offer of working.
I decided in my not so right mind that working at this tyme is crap.
Besides.
I think i'm gonna get my allowance.
(((:
Kor Zhi is just so cute luhhs.
HAHA.
Yes, you'll bring me to go gai-gai when i'm un-addicted to the freaking com.
Hehs.
-grins-
That's if i don't end up screaming like bananas on your bike.
LOL.
I shall continue with mu-online.
I seriously like that game.
Maybe a lil too much.
Might be meeting shroomster lateers.
MY BITCHING GURU.
Thens, we shall anlayze more complex issues of the human mind.
Couples are breaking up everywhere.
Nth's perfect.
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 6:19 PM
Sunday, January 09, 2005
Today was fine.
Watched tv slacked.
EDISON CHEN IS SO HAWT !
LMAO.
(((:
He's on MTV's whatever things.
The gumball special.
Fucking shit.
They have RED HOT ferraris and modenas.
-gawks-
I'm feeling quite disgusted with food.
RAHHH.
Which means i'm not quite well.
Oh !
I am officially addicted to mu-online.
Yes, it's a fabooolous game pls.
Gracious lord.
I have to thank my bro for lending me his account.
Haven gotten a way to level myself to lv 180.
-screams-
Prob means that i'll have to goggle through the night.
This, my dad forbids.
))):
Blogging to 98 degrees's The Hardest Thing.
PFFFT.
It never fails to make me cry.
And yet, i still take pleasure in listening to it.
Ah, the torment.
Lil bro has school tmr.
Wells, supposed to go bballing tmr with 3/5 of my clique.
We'll see how it goes.
The 5ths. ((:
3/5 : Safy, Dearie, Me. - We're acting bimbo pls.
Kinda blurry, (what the hecck.)
This day.
I laughed.
Smiled.
The most.
The longest time ever.
Thanks the 5ths.
-hugs-
Replies:
Lena: Yeapps. I know, it works miracles. ((:
Josh: I changed it. B I T C H.
Roslynn: Link this ? HAHA.
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 11:38 PM
Saturday, January 08, 2005
OH FUCK.
My blog's music thingy is working afterall.
-BEAMS-
I'm one happy girl.
Recap:
-) Crashing at safy's is kick ass.
-) I love cheese.
Char and i are like exchanging winks and nudges online.
HAHA.
Like two lil kids.
((:
And did i mention our msn screens are vibrating like every 1min or so.
R/s they take up tooo much.
Brad and Jen have gone through it.
AHHH.
It can't be.
Hollywood's golden couple.
)):
What's the world comming to ? !
-shakes head-
I'm sticking to Kyer.
She doesn't break my heart.
((:
I wished you'd never say you loved me.
I wished you'd never say you cared.
I wished you'd never asked me to be yours.
I wished you'd never say that you're always there.
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 11:21 PM
I love Kyer.
She makes me smile.
((((:
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 10:20 PM
I'm in a pinkish mood today.
-grins-
And josh shall be banned from correcting my mistakes.
How embarrassing pls.
)):
Photobucket is being such AN ass.
-hmpffs-
Fucking website takes like a million trillion years to load.
I R R I T A T I N G.
So, the pics will have to wait.
HAHA.
Josh >> Many manythanks for the help ! ! (((: -bigtighthuggs-
I don't quite like the weather anymore.
dfghjkldfghjkl
It's been raining like there's no tmr.
Causing my bio clock to crank up.
Fancy waking up at like 4 in the aft.
HAHA.
And i was SUPER UBBERLY blunt and mean to mushroom.
Aye, sorry pal.
Woke up on the wrong side of the bed.
):
Anws,
The reason for me changing the blog is partially cause i'm so pissed with diaryland.
It's getting quite a pain to host entries.
YADA YADA.
I might change back thou.
Hehs.
Depends on my mood.
RAHHH.
I like like like cheese.
-dreams-
Tmr my babies are comming over.
YAYY ! ! !
I <333
Hur hurrs.
Haven gotten "things" to work yet.
Josh and i got really fucked up.
Heck.
It's just the way it goes.
But you never fade with time.
Replies:
Josh: That i know. I so know. -sighs- Waiting for my psy, i'd say. La la la.
Lena: DANG. I hate them I swore i finshed half the year's supply of tissue. :(
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 9:01 PM
Friday, January 07, 2005
hellos.
It's been i reckon 3-4 hrs and i still have gotten it (it's haveN'T. this's josh btw.)
figured out.
Amazingly.
I got it worse.
-SCREAMS-
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 11:38 PM
Aiights.
I'm still trying to work this thing.
Can't seem to get most of the stuff right.
So, josh shall be listed into my help list.
-sighs-
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 10:57 PM
